I'm Only Gonna Be Here Now

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released February 1, 2011

Written and arranged from 2010-2011
Mixed at Close Quarters in Chicago, IL.
Recorded at Close Quarters from August 2010 to February 2010 except...
Guitars on Track 3 recorded at Stud Co (May 2010)
Drums for Track 1 and vocals for Track 3 recorded at Miniscule Recordings (December 2010-January 2011)
Drums for Tracks 2-5 recorded HN audio with the help of Adam Salsberg (December 2010).
Cover photo taken in summer 2010 with a spiffy Nikon camera in Longport, NJ.

By Seth Engel

Thanks to Adam, Bryan, Greg, Todd, JT, Matt, Ian, Mike B, Mike N, Nnamdi, Dylan, and everyone.



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Track Name: If If If
I finally got a good night's rest, and a better mindset. I was sinking back into bad habits, and losing my cool. In a different life, I think I could've turned out smarter and done better in school. Now I don't know what to do, or how to deal with the numbers when they add up to you.

I think too much and don't do enough. I eat enough but don't dream too much. In fact, I haven't dreamt in weeks, maybe months. And I know why, so why can't I just take the time to do it right?
Track Name: Sand To Hold
Can you think about the sand and how much you can hold?
Can you think about the way the waves build until they fold?
And although I miss that now, I missed this more back then.
'Cause now I'm not alone, I'm not scared, and I'm gonna win.

Although it tried it's best, the statement wasn't bold.
I know this isn't something I can control.
I guess it all depends on how others perceive the things that I say vs. what they mean.
Track Name: Time To
Things seem to keep moving too fast, so I try to slow down.
But then I'm left so far behind, and it feels just like the rain now.
Sometimes I don't know my name when other people do.
Starting over's always hard, and I guess I'm trying to.

But at the end of every night, I'm tucking in my sheets before I'm turning out the lights.
And all I owe is just some time to myself, time to do something right.

Can I relax yet? Or should I regret tryna make sense of the buzzings in my head. I need to get home. Back to the East Coast to face every ghost and figure out what lies ahead.
Promises get broken, the truth just goes unspoken, and cliches are dangling y a thread. And rhyming is confining the things I've always thought, but never said.
Track Name: Topple This
Why is it only when I'm down on my knees that I get introspective? I'm tired of waiting until my last straw breaks over neglecting the things I really need, like to make new friends or sleep. And I'm getting bored or I'm just boring...

I just wanna make some plans that cancel yours. I want you to make amends and settle scores. Think about how easy it is to topple it down, 'cause what you built will only fall back into the ground.
And it's past the point of forgiveness, so don't fuck it up for the rest of them. There's a little luck involved but now's the time to rise or just fail again.
Track Name: Forget It, Nevermind
Forget about me. I couldn't believe you recalled my name unhesitantly. I could suppose it's starting to show, and yes it's a risk, but for now I don't know.

I'm trying again. This is this, that was then. If not me, who? And if not now, when? Maybe someday I'll decide not to wait, but how much longer can this anchor stay?